Why is life hard?

Why is life hard? Why cant we have all the money in the world? Why is half the world suffering? How come we cant stop global warming? Why is life so hard? I always think about these questions, but the silly thing is that i dont even have the answers for them. Well I dont know what im trying to say. I just want to know why is life so difficult!?! Why does god hate us? Well he doesnt hate us, its just that if god created us and he wants us to live, then how come he creates things such as earthquakes and tornado's and other stuff, I feel that a lot has changed since a long time ago. Apparently Global Warming is getting bigger... :/ And I WANT IT TO STOP! Were all gunna die D= well acutally not literally, well maybe when were in our 80's or 90's if we can live that long. How come, when you go to a school and when you make so much friends, and when you grow up and make more, it's like others betray you, and it's like you dont trust them anymore, but i dont get it? Finding friends Forgetting Friends making new friends, it's difficult acutally. And how come parents get divorced? But dont they love eachother? Cuz if they do then why would they get divorced, if you never liked them then you shudn't have married them. But sometimes in the long run when they get married the 2 people are livingin happiness and joy but after sometimes their relationship grows apart. :( There's a lot of things to worry about, i try not to :P

This is MEE

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

It's hard to have friends

Hello, well its hard to have friends. Why is that so? Well when you have friends they maybe your best or your closet or just your friend. For me, I have A LOT of friends, and i treat them as if they were my sister/brother. But sometimes i feel like that they betray me, as in they talk behind my back, or they make rumors about me? I know a few who do; Kelly is my 'Closet' friend, well at least that's what i thought, until one day she was 'pissed' off and she starting yelling at me and my friend Karen, shes not the best. Shes quite grumpy and mean and racist also she talks behind other peoples backs. For example, She talked behind my back, she called me a bitch, and she said that she hated me. Also she said that she thinks im VERY VERY loud :/ There's people you trust, and don't trust, am i right, well sometimes you may not know if you actually trust them or not. But it's like you've known them for YEARS. I hate it when people do that, When you tell them the BIGGEST secret about yourself, and their like your sister/brother and your thinking 'oh well there like my sis/bro i think i can trust them, i mean they haven't told anyone about my other secrets' So you go ahead and tell them, them BOOM everyone knows! How is this? Well I'll tell you how, your so-called best friend just told everyone! But you may not think that, Cuz maybe you told someone else, and they found out.. hmm? NOPE! The person who told is the person who you THOUGHT you can trust, but you cant. Now there's other friends that are just your best friend. I have A LOT of best friends, But sometimes I can only name a few, NOT because i cant remember who they are, it's cuz some of them arent even my best friend, it's like i've known them for quite a while but then we stop talking? Lauren.s,Karen, Maria are my only best friend, the rest are my friends. Karen, Maira, and Lauren.s Are my CLOSET friends ever, I can tell them everything thats going on with my life, and i wouldnt care they can tell me EVERYTHING that's going on in there lives. So there are TRUE friends, BEST friends, CLOSE friends, and sometimes just FRIENDS :)

Hint Hint: You have to remember that be careful on the ones you trust, and the ones that are close to you ;)

I made a lot of mistakes, but this was the biggest one

Well, first i want to say, I made A LOT of mistakes in life, but im pretty shure that this was the biggest one :/

Okay, well this guy named Sam asked me out cuz he likes me, and we went out for like 5 days and he apparently didnt want to go out with me anymore, cuz of quinn, Quinn HATES me and i HATE him, hes the WORST. But after a few days later, near the end of the year dance, Alex asked me to the dance, and well i wanted to go with him AS FRIENDS, and well what happened was that Sam got Jealous apparently, and uhmmm, well he told me that he liked me again and then after when it was summer on a friday, he said that he wanted to break up with me ... well i made a BIG mistake, and im NEVER doing that again. It's hard to find love, my friends :)

She is like a double sword?!?!?

Hello there, well today i'm going to talk about this girl named (Put name here), she is well.. let's see shes like a DOUBLE SWORD.First shes nice and she says she will NEVER hang out with (Put name here) but then after she feels "sorry" for her. Yeah okay... go SMD!!!! The only reason why she felt sorry for (Put name here) is because people were teasing her, but wait you said you will NEVER go back to her?!??! So to me it's like you WANTED to go back to her. You WANTED to share your secrets with her. You WANTED to be her friend because you felt "sorry" for her. You WANTED to be her little follower again. You WANTED to hang out with her because you were sick and tired of playing with us. Well you know what GOOD FOR YOU. Know you tell me and (Put name here) that your going to hang out with (Put name here) and (Put name here) more. But at recess you didn't even hand out with them?? Was there something wrong. Did you forget.NoNo i know the problem you were to busy hanging out with (Put name here). You were busy "following" your master. Well you know what, we don't fucking need you, you can go suck your masters dick! But if you and her were in a fight don't come CRAWLING to us again, were sick and tired of your dumb excuses and we wish you a blessing life with (Put name here). THANK GOD!! All i have left to say is that, you shouldn't be lying and if you ever get in fights with (Put name here) well pray to god, maybe he can help you. Because me and my friends aren't going to bother helping you no more, it's hard to believe something like this would happen to a SMART and gentil girl like YOU. I hope you will BE THE CHANGE!

Why are you doing this to me!!!!

UGHHH!!! Why are you doing this to me!! Why? Why? Why? Your probably wondering who i'm talking about, well i'm talking about (put name here) he is very ughhh (he's words i cannot explain) he's confusing =S i HATE it .. why can't he be simple and easy, instead of being hard and hard to get? He is an AMAZING guy right now. Back then he used to be a jerk, i hated him. but then this other guy named (put name here) was also being an asshole and i liked that asshole.. until we got into a fight and it can never be the same EVER again. (Put name here) is very nice to me now (: he talks to me in public now. But he still doesn't look at me when i talk to him, i think it's because he is embarrassed or something. When i put my hand on his shoulder or something like that he turns ALL red?? Why is that... does he like me or does he not? that is what confuses me the most D= I wish it didn't. (Put name here) is trying to play games with me. i can beat you that, He always plays games with me. Why can't he be a simple boy who can just tell you if he likes you or not. Why does he have to be so COMPLICATED! i wish he wasn't but i can't change him, he has to change himself. I would rather pick (put name here) because he is NICER to me now, and he is WAYY better than (put name here), he is very RUDE and he swears at you for no reason, first he's nice then he's mean and then he's nice again like wtf.? Can't you just pick one personality already. Maybe he's on his "." or maybe he's just like that .. i don't and i don't care, all i care about is finding who (Put name here) likes. That sounds a bit stalker-ish much ehh? But i mean i need to know he's like KILLING me in the inside, is that what he wants? Me to be died, if he does then it's working he succeeds, he won he killed me in the inside. I really REALLY want to know who he likes. but i guess i can never find out. -sighs- I ask my friends to help me but most of them fails )= That doesn't get me anywhere, now does it? One of my friends named (Put name here), now she said this.. Lilian, guess what! I think (Put name here) likes you! I said, well how do you know??? and she said, Well when i was going home i asked (Put name here) who he likes, i said do you like (Put name here) and he did a throw up face and then i said do you like (Put name here) and he said no and then RIGHT when i said Lilian he didn't response back. He started to blush =) And i said well he always blushes and then (Put name here) said well when i said (Put name here) he did a throw up face and i was like .. well yeah thats true. So to me it seems like (Put name here) does like ME. i also figured out that he liked me in the beginning of year.

I almost forgot to mention! Every time i put my hands on (Put name here)'s shoulders or back he turns ALL red and when i smile or laugh he would smile and laugh =) So i don't know..

i find it confusing at times and he is confusing D=

ughhh.. and i thought girls where the hard ones to figure out. I guess i was wrong on that too!?!

Why is she like that!!

well i am having trouble! There is this girl named (put name here) and shes a BITCH she thinks shes so cool and she thinks shes better than very one else, ALSO she liked this guy named (put name here) when i liked him. She knew i liked him, also when i liked (put name here) she kept flirting with him and all. ughhh, i hate her so much! She's always giving me a look when i hang out with people she doesn't like, but i mean like, dude you hate them but i don't and i like being friends with them your not the boss of me so BACK OFF! Shes always "there" .. and i hate it and she's so UGHH .. ( she's words i cannot explain). I wish i never met her, but at times i do feel sorry for her. She barley has no friends, that's because shes always RUDE and all that shit. She bully's other people and all that stuff INCLUDING me! I hate it.

Oh and this also leads to another person! named (put name here) shes RUDE! One of my friends named (put name here) and her other friend (put name here) and (put name here) were all at the mall. Now it was a casual day, nothing special they were just looking around when all of a sudden (put name here) said "oh you do know that i'm not going to buy you guys anything" and then my other friend (put name here) was like "uhh.. we didn't even ask you to buy us anything". and she was like " yeah i know i'm just saying" i was like WTF !!! i got so pissed right after that shes a BITCH i hate her i wish she could go die with (put name here). Like seriously you don't fucking say "oh you guys know that i'm not going to buy you anything" . OMFG! i would be okay if you thought that but you didn't have to say it at our faces. like wtf! and then she goes "can you buy me something from the food court because i'm hungry" like wtf. NO go get your own food dumbass you bought 40 bucks, you can buy something for yourself. sheesh!.. Well i'm just making my point here, i mean you bring 40 bucks and then you said im not going to buy you guys anything and then all of a sudden you ask if we can buy you something to eat. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!! Your own money to spend, where not wasting our money on you, your a piece of SHIT! living on the streets !!! GO GET A LIFE! and STOP ruining ours! This also reminds me.. Every time when she doesn't want to go home she would ALWAYS invite herself to your house. And then she goes can i sleep over, and if you say no she will go like can you ask please please please! It's so damn annoying! And she also spits in your face! well she probably never did that any of you people, (you know who you are) But she never says sorry she just goes HAHAHA and then she leaves. WHAT THE HELL?!???! I just want to KICK HER in the FACE!!!! and i don't want to be mean but she has a face that looks like a BULL!!!! sorry.. but it's the truth. and she NEVER brushes her teeth !!! like wtf.. thats just messed up .. and nasty D=

Well if (put name here) and (put name here) reads this than i'm glad they did!!! DON'T EVEN TRY AND DENY IT^

Anyways, i hope you enjoy your lives you STUPID SELF-CENTERED WHORES!!!!